Relation-ship

i am back to the ship of relation once again.
it's been how many years since my last sailing?
3 years.. isn't quite a long time to escape? ahaha well, it is not that i want to escape from sailing but it's just i am tired of being in a wrong ship and tryna work it out all the time when i knew the ship headed nowhere.

now what seems to the right ship has come...
what seems. seems..
how should i put this, but this ship is the most normal ship i have ever sail haha.
been in a wrong ship for quite forever makes everything else normal, and yes, it is indeed, i am telling you, normal.

usually, when i sail a ship, i got everything i wanted to do on my head, the plans how to take this ship to its destination. however, this time, i found myself selflessly letting the ship heading whenever it wans to head. i dont think anymore, i just feel..

and when i feel.. i just know.. and when i know.. i am sure.. and when i am sure.. i will try my best to again, bring this ship to an unknown destination but, i wanted to do something different this time. not only bring the ship to its destionation, but i wanted to bring along everything i have on this ship with me to that destination.

or in the other way, i have the courage to bring what i think is precious on this journey, and trust me i never do it before, because i knew those journeys are for nothing.

this time, this time only, i will try to believe.. not only to think.

so welcome, captain nazsia is about to leave the port <3